vox dei: prayer in fusion

God -

Forgive me for giving up

Forgive me for giving in
to the futility of this world.

I ask for the strength to believe
in the presence of despair,

and the courage to keep fighting
even when it looks like I will lose
every battle.

For I know that
the battle is not mine to win,
but yours.

and your truest desire
is to see me contend
with every breath.

The battle I must fight in this life
is first against myself

And in that contest I feel you
cheering me on to victory.

Please give me your heart
your truth
your belief
your confidence

that I can win
that I can destroy
the falsehood within

and allow your permanence
more space inside me to grow.

Amen.