help me to live differently (prayer for fusion, week 6: genesis)

GOD –

THIS WORLD IS FULL OF VIOLENCE AND I AM SPENT ON CONFLICT.

I AM TIRED OF FIGHTING,
I AM TIRED OF DEFENDING WHAT WE DO,
AND I AM TIRED OF BEING THE ONLY PERSON TO ASK:

IS THIS RIGHT?

IS THIS WHAT IT MEANS TO FOLLOW YOU?

I WANT TO LIVE BETTER.
I WANT TO SHADOW YOU IN WAYS THAT BRING HEALING.
I WANT TO MEND THE WORLD.
AND WELCOME YOU MORE FULLY INTO IT.

PLEASE HELP ME TO FIGHT CLEAN,
TO FIGHT FAIR,
AND TO FIGHT WITH THE RIGHT WEAPONS.

I WANT TO BE A LOVER,
NOT A PUGILIST.

I CONFESS MY GREAT FAILURE IN THIS AREA
AND I CONFESS MY ANGER, MY RESENTMENT, AND MY GRIEF.

TAKE THEM FROM ME.

GIVE ME SOMETHING DIFFERENT IN RETURN.

GIVE ME EYES THAT SEE WHAT YOU ARE DOING IN THIS WORLD.
GIVE ME HANDS THAT HELP.
GIVE ME LIPS THAT PROFFER DEVOTION,
THAT READILY SAY TO YOU: WHEREVER YOU GO, I WILL FOLLOW.

WHEREVER YOU NEED ANYONE
PLEASE KNOW
THAT I AM HERE
AND YOU
CAN SEND ME.

AMEN.